A Long and Winding Road To Start My First Job

Next week from now, is going to be one of my biggest day on earth. And that's because I am going to start my first day at work as a secretary for director in this one financial advisor company. I got this job a loonggg time ago (well, not that long. I got this job since early August), and even before my graduation day! And the funny and silly part is I haven't work yet until this very moment. That's because, according to my future boss, the new office at Graha Bukopin isn't ready yet. So I have to wait for almost two months now. But the problem that's killing me the most is I can't stand boringness. I can't stand doing nothing all day! I feel boring, I feel useless, I can't sleep at nights!!! (the I can't sleep at night part is because if I do almost nothing at mid day, I almost can't sleep at night) In order to avoid that "insomnia", I have to think and do all the possible activities, which are watch DVD series until midnight, browsing the internet searching for anything to fill my head (and I turn out learning about stock market, interest rate, inflation, and other economic stuffs. How cool is that huh? ;P), hang out somewhere with my friends, cleaning up my room and the entire house, re=order my stuffs. I do this back and forth. Geez.

Surprisingly, the browsing and learning part is my favorite activity beside watching DVDs. I love to read because it can give you more knowledge no matter how small or useless the information is. If you read something new, you know something new and that's good. It will enlarge your knowledge so you do not just freeze out if one time people surround talk about some complicated subject. So I push myself not only read the fictions, but also the heavy one like the economic subject or else. I pick the easy-to= understand website like howstuffworks.com to help me. Well, if you didn't took the major, it doesn't mean you can't learn about it from the non-academic way rite?

Anyway this next Monday is my first day at work and i hope I can get along with the job, the boss, the partners, and the work environment. So far the boss is great and nice, the partners mostly are my high school friends and one of them is one of my best friend, the office is new, the office location is in the downtown, and the salary is more than great. For me this is one in a lifetime opportunity to have a job with a lot of advantages like this. It sure will enlarge my knowledge especially in financial subject and of course will enlarge my networks. I'm so excited!!!

Wish me luck everyone, I hope everything is going to be more than just fine :D :D

My Car Is A Supermassive Black Hole

I wonder.....WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY CAR?????Why I always lose something when the thing is in my car???????? aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh >,<

I don't know what is wrong with my car, but really, I think that there is something wrong with it. It is like my car has a black hole or something which can make a stuff of mine.....disappear!

It start to happened months ago, when I borrowed a novel book from my University's library. I can not wait to read it because it's a book of my one favorite writer, Meg Cabot. I put it in the left seat next to me. Then I had to pick up one of my friend, so I put my stuffs AND the book into the back seat. I just throw it away to the back seat with the thought that it still gonna be somewhere in the car anyway. BUT!!! after I got home, I look up for that book...and voila! it's gone. IT'S GOOONNEEE....!!!OMG. My friend, apparently, also open the back door and put his stuff too. So I predict my novel was fell off from my car...by accident.

I had to pay for Rp. 60.000 in return, because if not, I can not be graduated. Of course I chose to be graduated and I paid those stupid 60.000. What a waste --!

Now the second black hole incident happened just now. Tonight. I rent two movies I love to see (because Matthew Rhys plays the movies) and as usual, I put it in the left seat. Then I had to pick up my mom. As usual, I put off all my stuffs to the back seat. As usual, I throw it all without any notice that my DVDs can be very slipped. I thought I throw away the DVDs with the other of my stuffs. But AS USUAL......I lose it again. And this time, I predict, my DVDs was slipped somewhere in the outer corner of my left seat without me notice it, and I didn't threw it away with the other of my stuffs, and when my mother opened that stupid door, that stupid DVDs just fell off from the car.

I don't even know what to say. It's way to impossible for me. --!

I have this plan to go home and then watch my Matthew Rhys in this two movies with this warm heart, but now it's all gone. My Matthew Rhys is gooooneeee T,T

For the completion of my stupidipity, I don't even know how to connect the email account my boss gave me into Microsoft Outlook Express. I don't know what to fill in the email server internet connection wizard or what the hell. My life is pathetic...at least for tonight.

But really, I am curious, is it possible to a car to be a black hole?*wandering*

For those who doesn't know who the hell is Matthew Rhys, here it is:

He is cute, isn't he? He is also smart and damn funny. I love smart kind of funny guy ;)

By Bye Past. I Am Sure I Don't Want To See You Again Forever!!!

Dear Lord,

First of all, thank you for making me realize that for allllll this time, I've been so stupid and blind. Second of all, thanks to you for opening my eyes so I am no longer blind. And stupid.

_______________________________________________________

The first time I fell in love with this guy, I really gave my best to him. It means my heart, my love, my trust, my everything, until I realize that I have nothing left in me. For me he was everything and I loved him that much. I loved him just the way he is. Until I broke up with him years ago, somehow I still believe that the condition and the situation was something that is wrong, not us. And even this last week, I still believe that it was not us to be blamed.

But then I realize, that the situation blaming activity is just another cover for my heart, for my thought, so it won't hurt too much. The fact is, the us factor is something that is wrong.

I believe that there is no coincidence in this life. God has special purposes for every problem we are facing right now. And He obviously has a point for me. The pain and sorrow that I faced months ago is a sign. I feel like God is slapping my face, tell me to wake up for my own imagination and fake hope and stupidipity. So this is the reality and facts that God told me (by "slapping" my thought), whether I like it or not, I have to admit it's true:

No matter how hard I try to have faith in him, he never fight enough for me.

For all this time, I've been throwed so many good men who loved me, just for him. or at least in my mind I still hope that someday me and him will get back again so I close my eyes from good men around me. This is a part when I supposely say, I am damn stupid. Geez

He is not that good, he is not that nice, he is not that worth it.

Soooo thank you, for slapping me right in the spot God, it really awaken me. Now I am super ready to let go everything. No longer have that special feeling I was once confessed to him, no longer have special memories with him in my head, no longer have him in my life.

I wish someday he will read this entry, because I really love to tell him in person but I am too not in the mood to do that. I wish that in the time he read this, he will understand that I mean every word I said and I don't want him in my life again - forever. But I still wish him a good life and good lovelife. I hope he can find another love that actually work better than with me and I hope he can fight if he find the right love of his life.

Let me have my life, which in fact, will be happier without him. I thank him though for changing me into a better person inside and out, through the pain that he made me to have. Really, I learn a lot. But I hurt a lot too. Well, I guess there is always a price tag in every good stuff huh?

So goodbye you, please...please...do not come and mess up with my life again. :))))))))

God Changes You

One thing I adore from western people is how they solve their problems, by talking over it. They talk about the problem, what each other think, they speak their mind out loud. Well at least that’s what I see in Brothers and Sisters tv series. That is why I love that film. It gives me a blast in my head how by talking, expressing what you think, what you feel, and what you want is really the best way to solve the relationship problem. No offense, but most Indonesian people never used to democratically do something like that. They keep their feeling or thought hidden, hoping that the other party will be able to read it somehow. For heaven sake, they are not God.

I used to do that in the past until I realize that I become childish and selfish. So I start to be open with other people, let them know what I am thinking or feeling, or talk over what I want. But the most important thing is I just want to learn to be honest with myself. I learn that there is no reason to hide what you really feel inside. If you feel disappointed, you tell them you disappointed. If you love someone very much, you tell them the truth. Of course there are risks along with that kind of open confession. But we only grow but taking risks. And the most difficult risk of all is to be honest with ourselves and to others. I won’t regret anything. I won’t be a person who has a lot of things to say in mind, but can’t say even one single word. I won’t be a person who has a lot of things to say in mind but can’t say even one single word and one day s/he is ready to say something, s/he realize that everything is way too late. For me, it will be what hurt the most.

I once spoke about what I feel and what I have in mind to this long-story-someone. I tell him that he is the only person (at this planet earth. hahaha. no I’m kidding) that I loved just the way he is and for all this time, he is still irreplaceable in my heart. I confessed to him what I truly feel inside, because first he deserve to know. And second, I just learn to be honest with myself. I don’t regret a thing today, because that’s the truth. And even the end was horrible, at least I know that I already gave my heart a chance to speak out.

And yet he is still irreplaceable in my heart, and maybe until forever. It is like there is a hole in my heart along with I’m losing everything with him. There are too much pain and too much drama in this little story of mine so I won’t dare to go back to that time again. So even there is still a hole in my heart which is empty and sometimes make me hurt, but I rather keep on walking with what left on me, to the future. I am going to leave the past behind me, bury them deep down, and never dare to open it again. Like I said, it’s too much drama and tears.

I take a few steps back from him, hiding from everything related to him, just to make a room for me. I realize then that first, I really need to make peace with myself. I have to cure myself first before I face others. And it is hard for me because it is like stuck in between. If I have to give myself some time to recover with the way I think will help, so it’s also means that I am losing a best friend. He is my best friend which I found to be the most comfortable friend to talk to, to share something to. So yes, it’s a difficult time for me and a difficult choice to make. But I have to choose, because I believe this is what the best.

I just hope I am right.

Among all the things that happened between me and him, I realize one significant thing. That God changed me the most in the time I got stuck with him. The problem is a lot, and it is cause so much pain and tears for me. But God turned me better into someone I hardly recognize before. He want to me to learn something or many things from this pain and suffering. And now I’m become stronger, and I am become way too much better in everything.

But above all, I believe that there is a God who absolutely has a greatest power. He is the one who decides what’s happen and what’s not happen. I also learn that if God doesn’t allow something to be happened with His own best reason, it won’t happen! Even if you crying out loud ask for it. This kind of thought helps me to surrender t Him easily. This kind of thought helps me to, slowly but sure, heal myself.

So I believe that the complicated problem I had with him is allowed to shape my heart, so into His likeness I grow. And sure I will grow beautifully :)

I fell down but I get up again. I feel down for the second time, but I am still be able to get up again.

There I said it honestly again. :)))

The Pursuit of Happyness

“I want to be happy. Not just to be happy, I want to feel the happiness inside and out of me. I want to smile a lot, I want to jingle in all my way. I want to feel it start from inside of my heart and I want it to affect all of me…..”

There were times in my life when I felt that life is suck, life is full of disappointment, and life isn’t that beautiful like people keep saying all the time. And at some point, I realize that the world is forever complicated. So it’s me who needs to be simplified. If the world is disappointing, so then it’s me who has to be not-disappointing for others. If life isn’t that beautiful, then it’s me who has to make it beautiful in my own way.

So start with this thought, that I have to make myself happy first. How to make myself happy? is being thankful for whatever we receive and what God already gave us. I can grumble about my imperfect family, my imperfect friends I have, and imperfect me. Or I can be thankful for my imperfect but forever supporting family, my imperfect friends but always-be-there-for-you that I have, and imperfect me but forever thankful for everything. And I choose to be thankful, for this life belongs to someone bigger than any human being and He has control over everything in this and my life. He knows what the best is.

If I have a problem or tons of it, I will try to make it simpler as I can be. I learn a lot from my past experience (which is painful and hurt) that if you put overload thoughts in your head, that might explode your head and you end up with killing yourself slowly. So now I try to make it as simple as I can. Not make a deal become a big deal, not generating a single clue into something and make it a prejudice.

If someone tell something that might hurt you, be deaf.

If someone tell you something that might hurt you and you still can not be deaf, mute

If someone do something you don’t want to see, be blind

If someone do something that might hurt your feeling, be cold

If someone treat you as you don’t expect, be stupid

And you know what, sometimes it’s good to pretending to be deaf, pretending to mute, pretending to be blind, pretending to be stupid. Sometimes you just need to stop listening, stop talking, stop feeling, stop thinking too much and enjoying this life with your own way. Sometimes it’s good to not care about what other people say about you or what you should do. Sometimes you just need to go and do it in your own way.

I will put my iPod in my ears, sing along with the songs, and move my body and dance along. I will let myself free, hoping that in the time she come back – she will find herself become new and better ~~~

You can pursuit your own happiness. Surprisingly, you are the one who can create them into your own life :)))

So this is true: “the past hurt you, but it will make you stronger even more”. It’s just they, who create those sentence, forget to mention that that past will still haunt you down as a payback.

We-Just-Do-Not-Fit-Anymore?

Have you ever heard some people tell you the reason why they broke up is because they do not fit with each other. Or in Indonesian, some people translate it into “tidak cocok lagi”. I wonder, what if, in the first place a couple is really really fall in love with each other so everything looks perfect and match with each other too. They have the spark, the have the “click” feeling, they complete each other. But then they get married. As we all know, marriage isn’t that easy and cheerful as the wedding party. Marriage is a hard work (I’m not married yet, but at least I know slightly from this Fireproof film). There will be a lot of misunderstanding, there will be a lot of new adaptation with the habits, there will be a lot of expect more give less things along the way.
If you already married, and then you finally realize that there’s one or maybe two things you can not accept anymore from your couple, are you going to say that we don’t fit anymore and then get a divorce paper or something? Or will you rather continue the marriage life, your whole life, accepting those do-not-fit-anymore things?

So the question is, is the term “tidak cocok lagi” means you fit with each other at the first place but after that you realize that you do’t fit anymore? The next big question is, are you already try with the whole you which means that you try to change everything necessary to fit each other again? Or are you just see the fact that you don’t fit anymore then leave it?
So the next bigger question would be, what if you found out the do-not-fit-anymore things AFTER the marriage? Will you easily say that I don’t fit anymore and then you get divorce?
I learn a lot of things about marriage life from Fireproof film. I learn that people are change over time. So it will take a lifetime learning to learn someone, especially the one we committed to live with. You are not allowed to give up to learn them and it takes the whole you to do that. You give more and expect less, you change yourself more and still expect less, you try more and expect less.

Like in my religion, in your marriage you have to reflect the love that Jesus has for you. He gave everything and even his life to show how much He loves us. He never asked for something in return.
That’s what you do, when you really love someone. You give love that proven by doing everything you can and expect nothing in return.

Could it be work too on a relationship?

Passion

Greetings everyone!!! It’s been months since I opened this blog and it feel sooo nice to come back after a long break. I’ve been busy working on my final paper these months and it felt like hell. The seventh level of hell. But that was the yesterday and yesterday is just the past. I finally pass the final examination, I finally finish revising that final paper, and I think it is the time for me to throw away those books, handouts, copy papers, and all final paper-related. I’m sure I don’t want to see them for a quite long time. Freedom is finally mine!!! yay!! :D
So let me say goodbye to these photos, the ones I’ve taken in the middle of my “hell” time:

Lemme introduce you to Mr. Yudha,

the one who already helped me and my friends to do the statistic.

Muchas Gracias!

Just like I said before, sure there is happiness and proud and maybe also relieve in the time we wear our graduation gown. But that left us with one big question ahead us, where do we go from here. Where do I go from here? At first, it really drives me crazy, knowing that I don’t exactly know where to go and what to do next. Well, there is a “safe” road, you apply to some random jobs, you accepted, you do an office job as your own daily routine. But I realize that’s not what I really want. I want something more, something bigger, and something more free than just sitting behind the desk and do some repeat tasks everyday. And I know, in order to have that something more, first I have to have a dream, a vision, a mission – something I want to accomplish, something to reach. In conclusion, I have to have a purpose. Sadly, at first..I have none of them.
But days ago changed my life today. And I believe if I take that seriously, it will do change my whole entire life. It just crossed my mind that easy, gave me inspirations, gave me vision, mission, and the most importantly, gave me the answer of my “where do I go from here” question. I have a purpose now, and that is the one who going to drives my life. I know I will face a lot of things in front of me, mostly it is not easy. But I will keep fighting, I will dare to my dreams, and nothing or no one can stand in my way, except of course God in heaven above. hahahahaha.
I feel and I found my passion inside of me. Well, I guess that’s the most important thing in life: to have passion and reach your dreams and be completely happy. :D

Happy Sunday all!! I hope you do live your everyday life like if it’s your last days on earth. Make the best of your life!! Just forget your past, don’t feel attach to it, and moving on. I will quote Nickelback’s If Today Was Your Last Day lyric, I really do hope you inspired by it, just like me :)

My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the prize is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you'll never live it twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you're dreamin' of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love
If today was your last day

If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are
So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothin' stand in your way
Cause the hands of time are never on your side

Yes dear, because you can't rewind a moment in this life :)

The Alchemist

Weeks ago, when I was at Gunung Agung Bookstore Galaxy Mall, I saw a book that catch my attention. Well, the title of the book caught my attention. It is Like the Flowing River by Paulo Coelho. And since it’s an english edition, then the book must be out of the rational price. So I turned to search Paulo Coelho’s other books and I found this book. The Alchemist. I don’t know what exactly the alchemist is, but the translation in the book says that the alchemist is “ahli kimia”. But after I read until the end of the book, I still don’t know what is the relation.

The Alchemist is a story about a kid name Santiago and he is from Spain. He had this one exact dream twice, told him to go to the pyramid in Egypt to find his treasure. In the middle of his journey to find the treasure, he met the alchemist. And the alchemist and also the people he meet during his journey taught him a lot of things he need, to help him find the treasure. Even I don’t completely understand about the whole story (There are some words I never heard before like “Jiwa Buana”? I mean, what is it???), there are great quotations along with the story. And I’m going to quote it for you (Oh, and since I am not a great translator, I’m going to quote it just the way it is.hehe):


“Bila seseorang bertemu dengan orang yang sama setiap hari, seperti yang terjadi padanya di seminari, mereka berubah menjadi bagian dari kehidupan orang tadi. Kemudian mereka ingin oran itu berubah. Jika seseorang tidak seperti yang dikehendaki, yang lainnya marah. Setiap orang rupa-rupanya punya ide yang jelas tentang bagaimana orang lain seharusnya menjalani hidup mereka, tapi tak satu pun mengenai kehidupannya sendiri.”

“Peramal itu adalah ahli membaca ranting; dia melemparkan ranting-ranting ke tanah, dan menafsirnya berdasar cara jatuhnya. “Aku ini hidup dari meramal masa depan orang,” katanya. “ Aku tahu ilmu ranting, dan aku tahu bagaimana menggunakannya untuk menembus tempat dimana semua sudah tertulis. Di sana, aku dapat membaca masa lalu, mengungkap apa yang telah dilupakan, dan memahami pertanda-pertanda yang ada disini saat ini. Ketika orang-orang meminta nasihatku, aku bukannya membaca masa depan; aku menebak masa depan. Masa depan itu milik Tuhan, dan hanya Dia yang dapat mengungkapkannya, dalam kondisi yang luar biasa. Bagaimana caraku menebak masa depan? Berdasarkan pertanda-pertanda masa kini, Rahasiannya terletak di masa kini, Kalau kamu memperhatikan masa kini, kamu dapat memperbaikinya. Dan bila kamu memperbaiki masa kini, apa yang akan datang kemudian juga akan menjadi lebih baik. Lupakanlah amsa depan, dan jalanilah setiap hari menururt ajaran, percayalah bahwa Tuhan mencintai hamba-hambaNya. Tiap-tiap hari, pada dirinya, membawakan suatu keabadian.” ”

“Benda-benda apa ini?” tanya warga suku itu,
“Itu Batu Filsuf dan Obat Hidup. Itu adalah Karya Agung para alkemis. Siapa saja yang menelan obat itu tak akan pernah sakit lagi, dan sepotng pecahan dari batu itu bias mengubah segala macam logam menjadi emas.”
Orang-orang Arab itu menertawai dia, dan sang alkemis pun ikut tertawa. Mereka menganggap jawaban itu lucu.
“Apa engkau sudah gila? Buat apa berbuat begitu?” tanya si bocah pada sang alkemis
“Untuk menunjukkan padamu satu pelajaran sederhana dalam hidup,” jawab sang alkemis. “ Bila kau memiliki harta yang sangat bernilai di dalam dirimu, dan mencoba untuk memberitahu orang lain tentang hal itu, jarang ada yang percaya.”

And this is the best part; this is not a quotation, it is the prolog:
Alkemis itu mengambil buku yang dibawa seseorang dalam karavan. Membukabuka halamannya, dia menemukan sebuah kisah tentang Narcissus.
Alkemis itu sudah tahu legenda Narcissus, seorang muda yang setiap hari berlutu di dekat sebuha dananu untuk mengagumi keindahannya sendiri. Ia begitu terpesona oleh dirinya hingg, suatu pagi, ia jatuh ke dalam danau itu dan tenggelam. Di titik tempat jatuhnya itu, tumbuh sekuntum bunga yang dinamakan Narcissus.
Tapi bukan dengan itu pengarang mengakhiri ceritanya.
Dia menyatakan bahwa ketika Narcissus mati, dewi-dewi hutan muncul dan mendapati danau tadi, yang semula berupa air segar telah berubah menjadi danau air mata yang asin.
“Mengapa engkau menangis?” tanya dewi-dewi itu,.
“Aku menangisi Narcissus,” jawab danau.
“Oh, tak heranlah jika kau menangisi Narcissus,” kata mereka, “sebab walalu kami selalu mencari dia di hutan, hanya kau saja yang dapat mengagumi keindahannya dar dekat.”
“Tapi…indahkah Narcissus?” tanya danau.
“Siapa yang lebih mengetahuinya dari engkau?” dewi-dewi bertanya heran. “ Didekatmulah ia tiap hari berlutut mengagumi dirinya!:
Danau terdiam beberapa saat. Akhirnya ia berkata:
“Aku menangisi Narcissus, tapi tak pernah kuperhatikan bahwa Narcissus itu indah. Aku menangis karena, setiap ia berlutut di dekat tepianku, aku bias melihat, di kedalaman matanya, pantulan keindahanku sendiri.”
“Kisah yang sungguh memikat,” piker sang alkemis.

Become a Christian

Everybody knows that this life is an upside down process. Sometimes we are at above, but at some other times we are at the very below. And I think that is the nature of life. Or to be exact, that is life. C’est la vie. When the life is changing over time, I am changing over time too. And of course, I hope I change to be someone better, time to time. But at this very moment, I just realize one thing about one thing that actually-for all these times- shaping me. Without trying to be a fanatic and a bible talker, the thing that actually changes me is the bible and how I build my relationship with God.

I just realize and I admit that in 22 years of my life, I become a “good person” only in the time I build an intimate relationship with God. It means that I read the bible everyday like it is my daily bread, communicate with Him through prayers, and the important thing: do what He says through His bible. And usually when I do that, I am shaped into someone I never knew before. It is like the new me was born. It influence how I act, how I say, how I think, and the most important part is it do influence my attitude toward something. It helps me to accept the things I can not change and encourage me to do something I never thought I can do.

In the time I stay close to my Lord, the river of life is really flowing on me.

In the other hand, I realize that I become someone “bad” in the time I keep a distance with Him. Many reasons make me distracted, make my relationship with God is my last priority. And usually, I become a stubborn person, and I hold on to something too tight which make myself suffer and feel in pain. I can’t let go my past, I can’t let go all the things I know I can’t have, I can’t accept facts I fear I can’t accept.

It feels like I am alone in my own battle of life

I can pronounce myself to be a Christian.
But it won’t give any differences or any meaning if I don’t relate to Him who becomes the essence of the Christianity itself.

Happy Easter everyone of you who celebrate!!! May God be with you always. :)

In The Mood

Long time no open this blog, and I am kind of miss this little space of mine, where I usually put my thoughts and use it as a trash can or something. Hahaha. I’ve been busy, some people didn’t believe I’ve been busy because usually, I am not busy at all. Hauhauhuahauhaah. But this last week was a busy week for me. I spent everyday did something to another thing, go home late at night, wake up on the next day with another activity to do. I had to meet my lecture (die skripsi die!!), submitted revision, had meeting with reunion crew, attended a friend’s party, anddd of course watched movies which by the way, Dragon Ball The Movie or whatsoever the exact title is – is suck. Suck, suck, and suck. It is absolutely perfectly suck.

I also spent two days from my last week for photography hunting. This is a whole new experience for me and I am kind of loving it. The best part of this photography hunting was the place I and my friends spotted, Kenjeran Beach. I have to wake up 3 o’clock in the subuh and it was still dark outside. I never did something crazy like wake up 3 o’clock just to see the sunrise so I asked myself once, what exactly am I doing here and now? Hahahaha.
But it is worth though. The sun is beautiful, the scenery is over-expectation, and my friends captured that all perfectly. Or at least I can say, molto perfecto. Too perfect. And once again, nothing or no one can compare the creation of God.

My photo hunting experiences with my new friends also lead me to another thought. That all this time, I rarely spent my time with friends outside my friends, maybe I was too scared to jump out the safe-zone circle. But that time, it did change my mind. That I can be somewhere with new friends, make that new friends my friends, and I don’t have to feel scare at all. They fun, they nice, they funny, and they are great people with great talent of photography. And surprisingly, I love spend some time with them (David, if you read this, feel free to smile and feel happy. hyahahahahahha).

Anyway, April is coming soon and it is the time I have to finish my research paper or usually and sadly we call it skripsi. I supposedly feel panic now because the deadline is in front of my very face, but strange --- I don’t feel anything. And that's because I am still in the photography hunting mood.